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 Hi mom!

It's Christmas and I haven't felt sadder about the day ever. Today feels incomplete. Right now I'm sitting on my terrace and thinking of you. 

Christmas was so merry in school. I also noticed I go through post menstrual syndrome. The sadness could be very much for that as well. Nevertheless I guess there is a history of reasons for feeling sad on potentially happy festivals when you suffer from an inner void. Sometime I can't wait to see you. Everything feels like bubbles floating in the sky and I looking up to find you. 

I'm so glad I opened the blog. This just very vaguely gives me the hope that it can reach you. I wish you were here. I wish I were with you. In a better place. Where existence wouldn't feel trapped. 

Can't wait to meet. Till then, see you. Merry Christmas.